Welcome Inside My Head · Track 07

Two Voices

Caitlin Beadles3:52Out now

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Lyrics

Verse 1

Yeah

I don’t think they understand what this feels like

Wakin’ up exhausted, I ain’t even lived a real life

Every step heavy, every breath got a weight

Smile on my face, but it’s crackin’ at the base

I been carryin’ pain I don’t talk about

Tryna scream, but it never wanna come out

Heart broke, trust gone, mind runnin’ laps

Replayin’ every moment, every lie, every trap

Tell me how I’m ’posed to heal when it follows me?

Everywhere I go, it’s like it’s right there hauntin’ me

I gave love, got hurt, now I question it

Try to open up again—why would I risk it?

I don’t feel safe even when I’m alone

Got a war in my chest, got a storm in my bones

They don’t see it, they don’t know what it cost

They just see me still standin’, don’t see what I lost

Pre-Chorus

I’m so tired of fightin’ just to breathe

Tired of pretendin’ I’m okay when I’m not okay

How much more am I supposed to take?

Before somethin’ in me finally breaks…

Chorus

I can’t keep livin’ my life like this

Drownin’ in the dark, can’t find the switch

Too much pain, yeah, it’s weighin’ on me

Everywhere I go, it just stays on me

I gave everything, still got scars to show

Built my walls high, but they still got broke

Tell me why I feel so alone in this

I can’t keep livin’ my life like this

Verse 2

Yeah

They said, “Trust me,” now I flinch when I hear it

Gave ’em all of me, they disappeared with the spirit

Turned my kindness into somethin’ they could use

Now I question every motive, every move

You don’t know what it’s like to feel disposable

To love someone and realize you were optional

To beg for clarity and get silence instead

Now I’m stuck with every word that you never said

I tried to stay soft, but it hardened me

Tried to stay open, but it guarded me

Now I don’t know who I am in the mirror

Just a version of myself, but a little more distant, a little less clearer

I keep askin’ God like, “Why’d You allow this?”

Why the pain, why the wounds, why the doubt hits?

Why the people I loved turned cold on me?

Why the ones I trusted got control on me?

Bridge

I don’t wanna feel this anymore…

I don’t wanna carry this weight…

I don’t know how to let it go…

Verse 3

Stop.

Breathe.

That pain you feel? It’s not your identity.

You think you’re broken ’cause they broke your trust?

No—what broke was the illusion you built around them, not you.

You survived things that were meant to take you out,

And you’re still here questionin’ your worth? Let’s talk about it.

You gave love—that’s not weakness, that’s rare.

They mishandled it—that’s on them, not yours to wear.

You keep callin’ yourself damaged, but look at the truth.

You’re aware, you’re awake—that’s growth, that’s proof.

Yeah, it hurt—but it didn’t destroy you.

It revealed what was never aligned for you.

You don’t need closure from people who chose confusion.

You need distance from patterns that feed the illusion.

You’re not hard to love—they just couldn’t meet you.

You’re not “too much”—they just couldn’t reach you.

So stand up,

Not in anger—but in clarity now.

You don’t chase what walked away—you redefine what you allow.

Final Chorus

I won’t keep livin’ my life like this

Buried in the pain, feelin’ powerless

I see truth now, it’s breakin’ through

Everything I thought—yeah, I outgrew

I gave everything, yeah, I loved for real

And that don’t change just ’cause they couldn’t feel

I’m not lost—I was findin’ me

I won’t keep livin’ my life like this

Outro

I’m still here…

And that means somethin’.

From the notebook

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Two Voices

Got a war in my chest,
got a storm in my bones.

That pain you feel?
It’s not your identity.

You don’t chase what walked away—
you redefine what you allow.

I’m still here… and that means somethin’. ♡

Behind the song

The story inside it

“You’re not hard to love—they just couldn’t meet you.”

I wrote Two Voices as a conversation between the part of me that is exhausted by pain and the part of me that still knows the truth. The first voice is carrying broken trust, replaying every wound, and trying to survive inside a body and mind that never seem to feel safe.

Then the music strips back and another voice steps in. It does not deny what happened or rush the grief. It reminds me that being hurt is not the same as being broken, that giving real love was never weakness, and that someone else mishandling it does not make their failure mine to wear.

The ending is the moment those voices begin to move in the same direction. I do not need to chase closure from confusion or keep living underneath what happened. I can choose clarity, redefine what I allow, and recognize that finding myself is not the same as being lost. I am still here—and that means something.

— Caitlin

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