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🎀Abuse & Survival

Consent, boundaries, survival & finding your voice.

Going Back Doesn't Re Write My No artworkGoing Back Doesn't Re Write My NoCase ClosedFor when you keep asking why you went back, as if returning could somehow change what happened before.Changed Me artworkChanged MeReturn to SenderFor when the relationship ended, but your mind and body were still carrying the ways it taught you to question yourself and brace for danger.No Better Words artworkNo Better WordsCase ClosedFor when you keep searching for better words, as if saying it differently could’ve made someone respect what you already made clear.I Said No artworkI Said NoCase ClosedFor when you said no before you froze, and still found yourself questioning whether surviving somehow changed what you meant.Conditioned To Stay artworkConditioned To StayCase ClosedFor when you spent years asking why you stayed before realizing you were slowly taught to stop trusting your own boundaries.Love Would Have Listened artworkLove Would Have ListenedCase ClosedFor when someone taught you to question your own boundaries, and you’re finally remembering they never needed permission to matter.You Don't Get To Rewrite My No artworkYou Don't Get To Rewrite My NoCase ClosedFor when you’ve been using everything that happened after your no to question whether your no still counted.Narcissist artworkNarcissistReturn to SenderFor when loving someone slowly turned into managing their moods, carrying their pain, and believing it was your job to make them better.I Didn’t Cause the Consequences artworkI Didn’t Cause the ConsequencesCase ClosedFor when telling the truth leaves you feeling responsible for what happens to the person who hurt you.You Don't Get Access artworkYou Don't Get AccessCame Back WrongFor when you realize they loved having access to you more than they ever loved showing up for you.Daylight or Nothing artworkDaylight or NothingConditioned to StayFor when being wanted in private felt easier than risking rejection by asking to be loved fully and openly.No more protecting you artworkNo more protecting youReturn to SenderFor when telling the truth starts feeling less cruel than carrying someone else’s shame in silence.Hungry to Be Held artworkHungry to Be HeldConditioned to StayFor when the fear of losing connection makes it hard to hear, trust, or protect what your own body is asking for.Gaslight Glow artworkGaslight GlowReturn to SenderFor when they made you question what you could already feel, until you trusted their version of reality more than your own.The Cycle artworkThe CycleConditioned to StayFor when the cycle kept pulling you back in until you finally stopped calling control, confusion, and pain “love.”Both Things Can Be True artworkBoth Things Can Be TrueWelcome Inside My MindFor the part of you becoming someone you no longer have to abandon to be loved.More Than A Name artworkMore Than A NameWelcome Inside My MindAn emotional declaration of identity after years of being seen through someone else’s story—moving from conditional love and hidden motives toward self-worth, boundaries and reclaiming your own name.Left Me Guessing artworkLeft Me GuessingReturn to SenderFor when they kept you questioning yourself while hiding the very truth your instincts were trying to find.Came Back While Lying artworkCame Back While LyingCame Back WrongFor when they came back knowing the truth would’ve changed whether you let them touch you at all.

🧠Trauma & Mental Health

PTSD, overthinking, trauma responses & the battles inside.

Full Story artworkFull StoryScars You Can’t SeeFor when people know pieces of your life, but they don’t know the full story of everything it took for you to still be here.Put Together artworkPut TogetherScars You Can’t SeeFor when everyone can see your life, but almost no one can see what it actually feels like to live inside it.Changed Me artworkChanged MeReturn to SenderFor when the relationship ended, but your mind and body were still carrying the ways it taught you to question yourself and brace for danger.PTSD artworkPTSDScars You Can’t SeeFor when your life looks safe now, but your body is still responding to everything it had to survive.I Remember Everything artworkI Remember EverythingScars You Can’t SeeFor when healing doesn’t mean forgetting what happened, but learning how to carry the memories without letting them become the ending.No One Sees It artworkNo One Sees ItScars You Can’t SeeFor when you’re exhausted from fighting a war no one else can see and wishing someone would understand that “don’t stress” isn’t enough.Believe Me artworkBelieve MeScars You Can’t SeeFor when people see the few hours you function and miss everything your mind and body pay for afterward.Both Things Can Be True artworkBoth Things Can Be TrueWelcome Inside My MindFor the part of you becoming someone you no longer have to abandon to be loved.Invisible War artworkInvisible WarScars You Can’t SeeFor when everyone sees the life you’re living, but no one sees how hard your mind and body are working just to get through it.Craving the Hold artworkCraving the HoldConditioned to StayFor when you miss their touch and the feeling of belonging, but deep down you know you don’t actually want the relationship back.The Shouting And The Hush artworkThe Shouting And The HushUnsent LettersFor when one relationship taught you to brace for chaos and another taught you not to trust the quiet.Two Voices artworkTwo VoicesWelcome Inside My Mind“Two Voices" is about what happens when everything I’ve been carrying gets loud at the same time.The People Inside Of Me artworkThe People Inside Of MeWelcome Inside My MindFor when different parts of you carry different pieces of what happened, and healing means learning to listen to all of them without losing yourself.Raised By Opposites artworkRaised By OppositesConditioned to StayFor when one parent taught you to disappear and the other taught you to carry too much, leaving you to learn where your own needs fit.Unfinished Equation artworkUnfinished EquationReturn to SenderFor when you realize you’re not only struggling to let go of the person, you’re struggling to let go of the answer you never received.It Makes Sense artworkIt Makes SenseConditioned to StayFor when you stop asking what was wrong with you and start understanding why the ways you learned to survive made sense.Familiar Hurt artworkFamiliar HurtConditioned to StayFor when your mind knows the pattern hurts you, but your body still reaches for it because familiar pain feels more predictable than unfamiliar safety.You Don't Know artworkYou Don't KnowUnsent LettersFor when they’ve left your everyday life but somehow still occupy almost every quiet corner of your mind.Inside My Head artworkInside My HeadWelcome Inside My MindFor when your mind notices every silence, shift, and space between words, and you’re exhausted from carrying all the things nobody says.Chemical Ghost artworkChemical GhostConditioned to StayFor when leaving was the right choice, but your body still grieves the cycle of losing them and getting them back.House Rules artworkHouse RulesConditioned to StayFor when home taught you that keeping the peace meant staying quiet, taking the blame, and becoming smaller than the truth you were trying to tell.Nobody Can Know artworkNobody Can KnowCame Back WrongFor when you’ve learned all the lessons, built all the boundaries, and still find yourself wanting the one thing you know you’ve outgrown.Right Feels Wrong artworkRight Feels WrongConditioned to StayFor when someone finally gives you the consistency you always wanted, but your body is still waiting for the part where it disappears.Losing You Either Way artworkLosing You Either WayCame Back WrongFor when staying connected feels like losing yourself, but letting go feels like losing a part of yourself too.The Spark Didn't Die artworkThe Spark Didn't DieI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when the closer you became, the more they pulled away, and the more they pulled away, the harder you tried to hold on.Half Of Me Still Stays artworkHalf Of Me Still StaysUnsent LettersFor when your head has accepted the ending, but your attachment is still holding onto the person your heart learned to call home.

🪢Attachment & Relationships

The patterns we learn, repeat & try to understand.

Almost artworkAlmostI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when “almost” felt like love because it was still more than the kind of presence you learned to expect.Didn't Leave artworkDidn't LeaveConditioned to StayFor the part of you that learned to mistake someone staying for someone truly showing up.If You Wanted Me artworkIf You Wanted MeReturn to SenderFor when they didn’t want to lose you, but still wouldn’t choose you, and you finally realize those are two very different things.Withdrawal artworkWithdrawalConditioned to StayFor when leaving was the right choice, but your body still reaches for the person your mind knows you had to leave.Butterflies Were Just Wasps artworkButterflies Were Just WaspsConditioned to StayFor when you realize what you called chemistry may have been your nervous system recognizing something painfully familiar.Convenience artworkConvenienceCame Back WrongFor when you realize they kept you close because they knew you’d always be there, not because they were truly choosing you.Came Back Wrong artworkCame Back WrongCame Back WrongFor the part of you that mistook someone coming back for proof they had changed.Fell For It Again artworkFell For It AgainCame Back WrongFor the part of you that keeps falling for the hopeful moment instead of trusting the pattern.Red Flags Feel Like Home artworkRed Flags Feel Like HomeConditioned to StayFor when red flags feel strangely familiar because your earliest lessons about love taught you to earn, endure, and hold on.Fine Print artworkFine PrintReturn to SenderFor when you still miss them and still know why you left, and you’re finally learning neither feeling has to cancel the other.Wound Mates artworkWound MatesConditioned to StayFor when what felt like a soulmate connection was really two old wounds recognizing something familiar in each other.Red Flags artworkRed FlagsReturn to SenderFor when you’re finally more interested in protecting your peace than decoding another person’s red flags.What You Never Had artworkWhat You Never HadUnsent LettersFor when you kept giving more because you thought enough love could teach someone how to give it back.Hungry to Be Held artworkHungry to Be HeldConditioned to StayFor when the fear of losing connection makes it hard to hear, trust, or protect what your own body is asking for.New Map artworkNew MapConditioned to StayFor when your old patterns still feel familiar, but you’re finally learning that fear doesn’t have to choose the road for you.You Don't Get Access artworkYou Don't Get AccessCame Back WrongFor when you realize they loved having access to you more than they ever loved showing up for you.I Knew ( But I Stayed ) artworkI Knew ( But I Stayed )Conditioned to StayFor when you knew something wasn’t right, but kept explaining it away because accepting the truth meant having to leave.I Should've Listened artworkI Should've ListenedConditioned to Stayor when the deepest heartbreak isn’t losing them, but realizing how many times you stopped listening to yourself just to keep them.I Lost Me Loving You artworkI Lost Me Loving YouReturn to SenderFor the part of you that lost yourself trying to love someone into becoming whole.Unfinished Equation artworkUnfinished EquationReturn to SenderFor when you realize you’re not only struggling to let go of the person, you’re struggling to let go of the answer you never received.Silence Was Louder artworkSilence Was LouderReturn to SenderFor when you spent so long making your needs quieter that you almost stopped hearing them yourself.Losing Me artworkLosing MeConditioned to StayFor when you realize your fear of losing them has been costing you pieces of yourself.The Shouting And The Hush artworkThe Shouting And The HushUnsent LettersFor when one relationship taught you to brace for chaos and another taught you not to trust the quiet.You Had To Make Me Small artworkYou Had To Make Me SmallI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when the things they once loved about you became “too much” the moment closeness started asking more of them.I Loved the Monster Softly artworkI Loved the Monster SoftlyConditioned to StayFor when understanding why they hurt you became the reason you kept staying long enough to hurt yourself.I Loved You While You Were Leaving artworkI Loved You While You Were LeavingI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you realize you were still fighting for the relationship while they were already learning how to leave it.Losing You Either Way artworkLosing You Either WayCame Back WrongFor when staying connected feels like losing yourself, but letting go feels like losing a part of yourself too.Half Of Me Still Stays artworkHalf Of Me Still StaysUnsent LettersFor when your head has accepted the ending, but your attachment is still holding onto the person your heart learned to call home.Familiar Hurt artworkFamiliar HurtConditioned to StayFor when your mind knows the pattern hurts you, but your body still reaches for it because familiar pain feels more predictable than unfamiliar safety.Daylight or Nothing artworkDaylight or NothingConditioned to StayFor when being wanted in private felt easier than risking rejection by asking to be loved fully and openly.If I Could Talk to Her artworkIf I Could Talk to HerUnsent LettersFor when you stop comparing yourself to who comes next and start feeling compassion for the version of yourself who once stood there too.You Don't Know artworkYou Don't KnowUnsent LettersFor when they’ve left your everyday life but somehow still occupy almost every quiet corner of your mind.A Love He Didn't Know artworkA Love He Didn't KnowI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you understood their wounds so deeply that you kept explaining away the ways loving them was wounding you.I Didn't Even Like You artworkI Didn't Even Like YouConditioned to StayFor when you realize you weren’t staying because the relationship made you happy, you were staying because leaving the pattern felt harder than living inside it.Unprotected artworkUnprotectedI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you let someone know the most unprotected parts of you, only to feel them slowly stop choosing what they once held so carefully.Silence Was Safer Than Truth artworkSilence Was Safer Than TruthI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when staying connected felt safer than telling the truth, so you kept swallowing your needs until you could barely hear yourself anymore.You Knew Better artworkYou Knew BetterReturn to SenderFor when you learned to say your needs as gently as possible, but they still heard your hurt as an attack.Crumbs and Red Flags artworkCrumbs and Red FlagsConditioned to StayFor when you realize you weren’t holding onto the relationship as much as you were holding onto the hope that being chosen would finally make you feel worthy.Right Feels Wrong artworkRight Feels WrongConditioned to StayFor when someone finally gives you the consistency you always wanted, but your body is still waiting for the part where it disappears.Craving the Hold artworkCraving the HoldConditioned to StayFor when you miss their touch and the feeling of belonging, but deep down you know you don’t actually want the relationship back.Wonderful Nothing artworkWonderful NothingCame Back WrongFor when you stop measuring your worth by someone else’s capacity to recognize, receive, or protect what you gave them.Haunted By What You Missed artworkHaunted By What You MissedCame Back WrongFor when the relationship didn’t collapse all at once, but through all the small moments they chose distance instead of repair.Nobody Can Know artworkNobody Can KnowCame Back WrongFor when you’ve learned all the lessons, built all the boundaries, and still find yourself wanting the one thing you know you’ve outgrown.Last Call artworkLast CallCame Back WrongFor when you realize being their late-night comfort was never the same as being their first choice.My Soul Said No artworkMy Soul Said NoConditioned to StayFor when your body called something love because it felt familiar, until another part of you finally realized familiar wasn’t the same as safe.If I Let You In artworkIf I Let You InConditioned to StayFor the part of you that wants closeness, but still gets scared when someone gets close enough to matter.I Felt Everything artworkI Felt EverythingI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you were called too sensitive so often that you almost stopped trusting how deeply you were experiencing what was happening.Too Quiet artworkToo QuietConditioned to StayFor when healthy love feels strangely quiet because your body learned to recognize chaos as connection.Pick A Side artworkPick A SideReturn to SenderFor when someone wanted you to act taken while keeping themselves free to call you single whenever it benefited them.You Took The Easy Way Out artworkYou Took The Easy Way OutCame Back WrongFor when you stop wondering what someone else had that you didn’t, and realize the relationship may have simply asked for more depth than they were willing to give.Dark Room artworkDark RoomI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when their silence left you searching in the dark for answers, until you started shrinking your own needs just to keep the connection.Almost Loved artworkAlmost LovedI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when their distance made you chase harder, and you kept trying to become enough for someone who was afraid of getting close.Opposite Fires artworkOpposite FiresConditioned to StayFor when you realize you were both afraid of losing connection, but one of you chased it while the other ran from it.The Dance artworkThe DanceConditioned to StayFor when their distance makes you chase harder, but the moment you pull away, they reach for you again.The Detox artworkThe DetoxConditioned to StayFor when walking away feels like withdrawal because your body learned to crave the cycle you’re trying to leave.Placeholder artworkPlaceholderReturn to SenderFor when you realize they kept you close enough to meet their need for connection, but never close enough to truly choose you.Second Chances Shouldn’t Feel Like This artworkSecond Chances Shouldn’t Feel Like ThisCame Back WrongFor when you keep giving them another chance, hoping this time they’ll finally choose you.Louder Than Words artworkLouder Than WordsI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when quiet felt like safety because you were used to chaos, until you realized silence could leave you lonely too.Low Stakes artworkLow StakesI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when they wanted connection as long as it never became deep enough to require them to stay.I Loved You Anyway artworkI Loved You AnywayUnsent LettersFor the part of you that loved them deeply, even after you knew love couldn’t make it work.I See You Still artworkI See You StillI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you can see the fear underneath their silence while trying to explain the fear their silence creates in you.The Spark Didn't Die artworkThe Spark Didn't DieI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when the closer you became, the more they pulled away, and the more they pulled away, the harder you tried to hold on.You Were My Placeholder artworkYou Were My PlaceholderReturn to SenderFor when you realize you weren’t only settling for less from them, you had stopped believing you deserved more for yourself.Inside My Head artworkInside My HeadWelcome Inside My MindFor when your mind notices every silence, shift, and space between words, and you’re exhausted from carrying all the things nobody says.You Didn't Break Me artworkYou Didn't Break MeReturn to SenderFor when healing means taking responsibility for the ways you abandoned yourself without taking the blame for someone else’s choices.Chemical Ghost artworkChemical GhostConditioned to StayFor when leaving was the right choice, but your body still grieves the cycle of losing them and getting them back.You Want Me Shallow artworkYou Want Me ShallowReturn to SenderFor when they wanted all the comfort of loving you, as long as loving you never required them to go deeper.You Didn't Even Try artworkYou Didn't Even TryCame Back WrongFor when they came back wanting access to you, but still weren’t willing to choose you.Underdeveloped artworkUnderdevelopedReturn to SenderFor when you realize empathy became self-abandonment because you kept explaining the behavior that was hurting you.You Don't Get To Miss Me artworkYou Don't Get To Miss MeReturn to SenderFor when you spent so long disappearing to keep them that healing finally means deciding they don’t get access to you anymore.Lonely Next To You artworkLonely Next To YouConditioned to StayFor when having someone beside you kept you from admitting how alone you actually felt.If Silence Could Speak artworkIf Silence Could SpeakCame Back WrongFor when you realized doing nothing was still communicating something, and their silence kept saying what their words wouldn’t.I Was Brave artworkI Was BraveReturn to SenderFor when you realize courage wasn’t feeling less afraid, it was choosing honesty and vulnerability even while you were scared.Don't Let Me Drown artworkDon't Let Me DrownWelcome Inside My MindFor the part of you that keeps reaching for someone who feels safest at a distance.I Learned Love From Watching in Silence artworkI Learned Love From Watching in SilenceConditioned to StayFor the part of you that learned love by watching what hurt—and is trying to write a different ending.My Head Knows Better artworkMy Head Knows BetterCame Back WrongFor when you can see every reason to leave, but knowing better still doesn’t make your heart let go.Perfect Scares Me artworkPerfect Scares MeConditioned to StayFor when you finally meet someone who gives you what you always wanted, and suddenly you’re the one wanting to run.I Would Have Loved You There artworkI Would Have Loved You ThereI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you would’ve loved every part they were afraid to show you, but you couldn’t convince them they were safe enough to be seen.Easier To Love You From Far Away artworkEasier To Love You From Far AwayConditioned to StayFor when you realize loving someone unavailable felt safer because their distance meant you never had to risk being fully known.

💔Heartbreak & Letting Go

Missing them, losing them & learning to move forward.

A Love He Didn't Know artworkA Love He Didn't KnowI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you understood their wounds so deeply that you kept explaining away the ways loving them was wounding you.Good Riddance artworkGood RiddanceReturn to SenderFor when you finally realize you weren’t lacking anything, you were offering depth to someone who kept choosing the shallow end.Goodbye artworkGoodbyeI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you finally stop waiting for one more answer and realize the only thing left to do is let go.Cowards Crown artworkCowards CrownReturn to SenderFor when they never had to physically leave the relationship for their attention and honesty to start going somewhere else.Losing You Either Way artworkLosing You Either WayCame Back WrongFor when staying connected feels like losing yourself, but letting go feels like losing a part of yourself too.Couldn't Choose Me artworkCouldn't Choose MeCame Back WrongFor when you stop waiting for someone to choose you and finally make the choice for yourself.Last Call artworkLast CallCame Back WrongFor when you realize being their late-night comfort was never the same as being their first choice.You Had It Easy artworkYou Had It EasyI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you realize they had already started letting go while you were still loving the relationship like it could be saved.Unfinished Equation artworkUnfinished EquationReturn to SenderFor when you realize you’re not only struggling to let go of the person, you’re struggling to let go of the answer you never received.I Would Have Loved You There artworkI Would Have Loved You ThereI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you would’ve loved every part they were afraid to show you, but you couldn’t convince them they were safe enough to be seen.Double Standard artworkDouble StandardReturn to SenderFor when you realize you were being held to rules they were quietly breaking themselves.You Don't Know artworkYou Don't KnowUnsent LettersFor when they’ve left your everyday life but somehow still occupy almost every quiet corner of your mind.Return To Sender artworkReturn To SenderReturn to SenderFor when you finally realize the doubt, blame, and confusion they left you carrying were never yours to keep.If Silence Could Speak artworkIf Silence Could SpeakCame Back WrongFor when you realized doing nothing was still communicating something, and their silence kept saying what their words wouldn’t.I Didn’t Cause the Consequences artworkI Didn’t Cause the ConsequencesCase ClosedFor when telling the truth leaves you feeling responsible for what happens to the person who hurt you.Convenience artworkConvenienceCame Back WrongFor when you realize they kept you close because they knew you’d always be there, not because they were truly choosing you.Low Stakes artworkLow StakesI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when they wanted connection as long as it never became deep enough to require them to stay.No more protecting you artworkNo more protecting youReturn to SenderFor when telling the truth starts feeling less cruel than carrying someone else’s shame in silence.Building A Future Without Me artworkBuilding A Future Without MeI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you realize you were still building a future together while they were quietly learning how to leave it.I Felt Everything artworkI Felt EverythingI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you were called too sensitive so often that you almost stopped trusting how deeply you were experiencing what was happening.Dear Drew ( I Would Have Left ) artworkDear Drew ( I Would Have Left )I Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you realize you weren’t begging them to stay, you were giving them every chance to tell you the truth so you could leave.Unprotected artworkUnprotectedI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you let someone know the most unprotected parts of you, only to feel them slowly stop choosing what they once held so carefully.Second Chances Shouldn’t Feel Like This artworkSecond Chances Shouldn’t Feel Like ThisCame Back WrongFor when you keep giving them another chance, hoping this time they’ll finally choose you.Half Of Me Still Stays artworkHalf Of Me Still StaysUnsent LettersFor when your head has accepted the ending, but your attachment is still holding onto the person your heart learned to call home.Better This Way artworkBetter This WayReturn to SenderFor when experiencing steady love finally shows you how heavy the love you were chasing used to feel.I Loved You Anyway artworkI Loved You AnywayUnsent LettersFor the part of you that loved them deeply, even after you knew love couldn’t make it work.Silence Was Safer Than Truth artworkSilence Was Safer Than TruthI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when staying connected felt safer than telling the truth, so you kept swallowing your needs until you could barely hear yourself anymore.Came Back Like You Meant It artworkCame Back Like You Meant ItCame Back WrongFor when they came back like they were choosing you while hiding the truth that would’ve made you walk away.You Came Back artworkYou Came BackCame Back WrongFor when they could’ve stayed gone, but came back hiding the truth that would’ve kept your door closed.Almost Loved artworkAlmost LovedI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when their distance made you chase harder, and you kept trying to become enough for someone who was afraid of getting close.Pick A Side artworkPick A SideReturn to SenderFor when someone wanted you to act taken while keeping themselves free to call you single whenever it benefited them.You Took The Easy Way Out artworkYou Took The Easy Way OutCame Back WrongFor when you stop wondering what someone else had that you didn’t, and realize the relationship may have simply asked for more depth than they were willing to give.Easy Out artworkEasy OutI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you gave them every chance to leave honestly, but they kept giving you reasons to stay.I Loved You While You Were Leaving artworkI Loved You While You Were LeavingI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you realize you were still fighting for the relationship while they were already learning how to leave it.I See You Still artworkI See You StillI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you can see the fear underneath their silence while trying to explain the fear their silence creates in you.You Didn't Even Try artworkYou Didn't Even TryCame Back WrongFor when they came back wanting access to you, but still weren’t willing to choose you.Don't Let Me Drown artworkDon't Let Me DrownWelcome Inside My MindFor the part of you that keeps reaching for someone who feels safest at a distance.Your Terms artworkYour TermsI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when they controlled when to pull you close, when to create distance, and when to leave, until you finally stopped letting them set the terms.You Had To Make Me Small artworkYou Had To Make Me SmallI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when the things they once loved about you became “too much” the moment closeness started asking more of them.Lonely Next To You artworkLonely Next To YouConditioned to StayFor when having someone beside you kept you from admitting how alone you actually felt.Half In, Half Out artworkHalf In, Half OutI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when they stayed close enough to keep you hoping while emotionally leaving a little more every day.Shiny Lies artworkShiny LiesReturn to SenderFor when the promises were beautiful, but eventually their actions told you a completely different story.The Cost Of Believing You artworkThe Cost Of Believing YouI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you trusted their reassurance over your intuition, only to find out your body had been telling you the truth.Without Falling Apart artworkWithout Falling ApartUnsent LettersFor when you know the relationship hurt you, but letting it go doesn’t make the love you felt any less real.Bare Minimum artworkBare MinimumReturn to SenderFor when you realize you were being accused of the very things they were doing while you were busy trying to prove your loyalty.Haunted By What You Missed artworkHaunted By What You MissedCame Back WrongFor when the relationship didn’t collapse all at once, but through all the small moments they chose distance instead of repair.Two Endings artworkTwo EndingsCame Back WrongFor when they left the door open just enough to make you grieve the ending twice.Dear Drew artworkDear DrewCame Back WrongFor when you stop trying to understand why they couldn’t love you differently and finally decide that what they gave you wasn’t enough.Almost artworkAlmostI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when “almost” felt like love because it was still more than the kind of presence you learned to expect.Hurt With No Name artworkHurt With No NameWelcome Inside My MindA gentle, heartbreaking and deeply healing journey from anger through shame and grief to self-compassion—discovering that difficult emotions are messengers asking to be heard.Left Me Guessing artworkLeft Me GuessingReturn to SenderFor when they kept you questioning yourself while hiding the very truth your instincts were trying to find.Came Back Wrong artworkCame Back WrongCame Back WrongFor the part of you that mistook someone coming back for proof they had changed.But No, You Didn't Use Me artworkBut No, You Didn't Use MeCame Back WrongFor when they kept coming back for comfort without staying for the connection that comfort was supposed to belong to.No Repair artworkNo RepairI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when the truth finally came, but the apology, accountability, and repair you needed never came with it.You Don't Get To Miss Me artworkYou Don't Get To Miss MeReturn to SenderFor when you spent so long disappearing to keep them that healing finally means deciding they don’t get access to you anymore.The Version That Never Existed artworkThe Version That Never ExistedUnsent LettersFor when you’re no longer grieving the relationship, you’re grieving the person you thought you knew inside it.I Don't Envy Her artworkI Don't Envy HerReturn to SenderFor when you stop envying who comes next because you remember what being chosen by them eventually cost you.I Was Right artworkI Was RightReturn to SenderFor when the truth finally confirms what you felt all along, but being right hurts more than the uncertainty ever did.

🕯️Betrayal & Deception

Lies, broken trust, hidden truths & finally seeing clearly.

The Cost Of Believing You artworkThe Cost Of Believing YouI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you trusted their reassurance over your intuition, only to find out your body had been telling you the truth.Came Back While Lying artworkCame Back While LyingCame Back WrongFor when they came back knowing the truth would’ve changed whether you let them touch you at all.Easy Out artworkEasy OutI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you gave them every chance to leave honestly, but they kept giving you reasons to stay.You Came Back artworkYou Came BackCame Back WrongFor when they could’ve stayed gone, but came back hiding the truth that would’ve kept your door closed.What Kind Of Man Does That? artworkWhat Kind Of Man Does That?Came Back WrongFor the part of you left questioning reality after someone knowingly let you make choices without the truth.Came Back Like You Meant It artworkCame Back Like You Meant ItCame Back WrongFor when they came back like they were choosing you while hiding the truth that would’ve made you walk away.But No, You Didn't Use Me artworkBut No, You Didn't Use MeCame Back WrongFor when they kept coming back for comfort without staying for the connection that comfort was supposed to belong to.You Knew Better artworkYou Knew BetterReturn to SenderFor when you learned to say your needs as gently as possible, but they still heard your hurt as an attack.The Version That Never Existed artworkThe Version That Never ExistedUnsent LettersFor when you’re no longer grieving the relationship, you’re grieving the person you thought you knew inside it.I Was Right artworkI Was RightReturn to SenderFor when the truth finally confirms what you felt all along, but being right hurts more than the uncertainty ever did.Double Standard artworkDouble StandardReturn to SenderFor when you realize you were being held to rules they were quietly breaking themselves.Half In, Half Out artworkHalf In, Half OutI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when they stayed close enough to keep you hoping while emotionally leaving a little more every day.Left Me Guessing artworkLeft Me GuessingReturn to SenderFor when they kept you questioning yourself while hiding the very truth your instincts were trying to find.Cry Like A Boy artworkCry Like A BoyReturn to SenderFor when someone finally gets a taste of the same mixed signals, ghosting, and games they once handed out so easily.Gaslight Glow artworkGaslight GlowReturn to SenderFor when they made you question what you could already feel, until you trusted their version of reality more than your own.Your Terms artworkYour TermsI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when they controlled when to pull you close, when to create distance, and when to leave, until you finally stopped letting them set the terms.Shiny Lies artworkShiny LiesReturn to SenderFor when the promises were beautiful, but eventually their actions told you a completely different story.Dear Drew ( I Would Have Left ) artworkDear Drew ( I Would Have Left )I Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you realize you weren’t begging them to stay, you were giving them every chance to tell you the truth so you could leave.Return To Sender artworkReturn To SenderReturn to SenderFor when you finally realize the doubt, blame, and confusion they left you carrying were never yours to keep.Building A Future Without Me artworkBuilding A Future Without MeI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you realize you were still building a future together while they were quietly learning how to leave it.Cowards Crown artworkCowards CrownReturn to SenderFor when they never had to physically leave the relationship for their attention and honesty to start going somewhere else.Pick A Side artworkPick A SideReturn to SenderFor when someone wanted you to act taken while keeping themselves free to call you single whenever it benefited them.Bare Minimum artworkBare MinimumReturn to SenderFor when you realize you were being accused of the very things they were doing while you were busy trying to prove your loyalty.I Don't Envy Her artworkI Don't Envy HerReturn to SenderFor when you stop envying who comes next because you remember what being chosen by them eventually cost you.No Repair artworkNo RepairI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when the truth finally came, but the apology, accountability, and repair you needed never came with it.You Had It Easy artworkYou Had It EasyI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you realize they had already started letting go while you were still loving the relationship like it could be saved.

🫧Invisible Illness

For the battles your body carries that others can't always see.

Believe Me artworkBelieve MeScars You Can’t SeeFor when people see the few hours you function and miss everything your mind and body pay for afterward.Invisible War artworkInvisible WarScars You Can’t SeeFor when everyone sees the life you’re living, but no one sees how hard your mind and body are working just to get through it.PTSD artworkPTSDScars You Can’t SeeFor when your life looks safe now, but your body is still responding to everything it had to survive.Put Together artworkPut TogetherScars You Can’t SeeFor when everyone can see your life, but almost no one can see what it actually feels like to live inside it.No One Sees It artworkNo One Sees ItScars You Can’t SeeFor when you’re exhausted from fighting a war no one else can see and wishing someone would understand that “don’t stress” isn’t enough.

🌱Healing & Finding Yourself

Choosing yourself, rebuilding & becoming who you are.

Already Chosen artworkAlready ChosenUnsent LettersFor the part of you trying to understand why love can feel so complicated when old patterns get involved.The Version That Never Existed artworkThe Version That Never ExistedUnsent LettersFor when you’re no longer grieving the relationship, you’re grieving the person you thought you knew inside it.A Love He Didn't Know artworkA Love He Didn't KnowI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you understood their wounds so deeply that you kept explaining away the ways loving them was wounding you.Better This Way artworkBetter This WayReturn to SenderFor when experiencing steady love finally shows you how heavy the love you were chasing used to feel.I Was Brave artworkI Was BraveReturn to SenderFor when you realize courage wasn’t feeling less afraid, it was choosing honesty and vulnerability even while you were scared.Cry Like A Boy artworkCry Like A BoyReturn to SenderFor when someone finally gets a taste of the same mixed signals, ghosting, and games they once handed out so easily.I Don't Envy Her artworkI Don't Envy HerReturn to SenderFor when you stop envying who comes next because you remember what being chosen by them eventually cost you.Losing Me artworkLosing MeConditioned to StayFor when you realize your fear of losing them has been costing you pieces of yourself.You Didn't Break Me artworkYou Didn't Break MeReturn to SenderFor when healing means taking responsibility for the ways you abandoned yourself without taking the blame for someone else’s choices.I Was Right artworkI Was RightReturn to SenderFor when the truth finally confirms what you felt all along, but being right hurts more than the uncertainty ever did.Red Flags Feel Like Home artworkRed Flags Feel Like HomeConditioned to StayFor when red flags feel strangely familiar because your earliest lessons about love taught you to earn, endure, and hold on.Full Story artworkFull StoryScars You Can’t SeeFor when people know pieces of your life, but they don’t know the full story of everything it took for you to still be here.Silence Was Safer Than Truth artworkSilence Was Safer Than TruthI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when staying connected felt safer than telling the truth, so you kept swallowing your needs until you could barely hear yourself anymore.Nobody Can Know artworkNobody Can KnowCame Back WrongFor when you’ve learned all the lessons, built all the boundaries, and still find yourself wanting the one thing you know you’ve outgrown.If Silence Could Speak artworkIf Silence Could SpeakCame Back WrongFor when you realized doing nothing was still communicating something, and their silence kept saying what their words wouldn’t.My Soul Said No artworkMy Soul Said NoConditioned to StayFor when your body called something love because it felt familiar, until another part of you finally realized familiar wasn’t the same as safe.Hurt With No Name artworkHurt With No NameWelcome Inside My MindA gentle, heartbreaking and deeply healing journey from anger through shame and grief to self-compassion—discovering that difficult emotions are messengers asking to be heard.If You Wanted Me artworkIf You Wanted MeReturn to SenderFor when they didn’t want to lose you, but still wouldn’t choose you, and you finally realize those are two very different things.Couldn't Choose Me artworkCouldn't Choose MeCame Back WrongFor when you stop waiting for someone to choose you and finally make the choice for yourself.Two Voices artworkTwo VoicesWelcome Inside My Mind“Two Voices" is about what happens when everything I’ve been carrying gets loud at the same time.It Makes Sense artworkIt Makes SenseConditioned to StayFor when you stop asking what was wrong with you and start understanding why the ways you learned to survive made sense.Return To Sender artworkReturn To SenderReturn to SenderFor when you finally realize the doubt, blame, and confusion they left you carrying were never yours to keep.I Knew ( But I Stayed ) artworkI Knew ( But I Stayed )Conditioned to StayFor when you knew something wasn’t right, but kept explaining it away because accepting the truth meant having to leave.The People Inside Of Me artworkThe People Inside Of MeWelcome Inside My MindFor when different parts of you carry different pieces of what happened, and healing means learning to listen to all of them without losing yourself.Wound Mates artworkWound MatesConditioned to StayFor when what felt like a soulmate connection was really two old wounds recognizing something familiar in each other.No more protecting you artworkNo more protecting youReturn to SenderFor when telling the truth starts feeling less cruel than carrying someone else’s shame in silence.The Shouting And The Hush artworkThe Shouting And The HushUnsent LettersFor when one relationship taught you to brace for chaos and another taught you not to trust the quiet.Good Riddance artworkGood RiddanceReturn to SenderFor when you finally realize you weren’t lacking anything, you were offering depth to someone who kept choosing the shallow end.You Came Back artworkYou Came BackCame Back WrongFor when they could’ve stayed gone, but came back hiding the truth that would’ve kept your door closed.Underdeveloped artworkUnderdevelopedReturn to SenderFor when you realize empathy became self-abandonment because you kept explaining the behavior that was hurting you.I Learned Love From Watching in Silence artworkI Learned Love From Watching in SilenceConditioned to StayFor the part of you that learned love by watching what hurt—and is trying to write a different ending.What You Never Had artworkWhat You Never HadUnsent LettersFor when you kept giving more because you thought enough love could teach someone how to give it back.Fine Print artworkFine PrintReturn to SenderFor when you still miss them and still know why you left, and you’re finally learning neither feeling has to cancel the other.Without Falling Apart artworkWithout Falling ApartUnsent LettersFor when you know the relationship hurt you, but letting it go doesn’t make the love you felt any less real.Goodbye artworkGoodbyeI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you finally stop waiting for one more answer and realize the only thing left to do is let go.I Lost Me Loving You artworkI Lost Me Loving YouReturn to SenderFor the part of you that lost yourself trying to love someone into becoming whole.I Loved the Monster Softly artworkI Loved the Monster SoftlyConditioned to StayFor when understanding why they hurt you became the reason you kept staying long enough to hurt yourself.Almost Loved artworkAlmost LovedI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when their distance made you chase harder, and you kept trying to become enough for someone who was afraid of getting close.Silence Was Louder artworkSilence Was LouderReturn to SenderFor when you spent so long making your needs quieter that you almost stopped hearing them yourself.If I Could Talk to Her artworkIf I Could Talk to HerUnsent LettersFor when you stop comparing yourself to who comes next and start feeling compassion for the version of yourself who once stood there too.I Didn't Even Like You artworkI Didn't Even Like YouConditioned to StayFor when you realize you weren’t staying because the relationship made you happy, you were staying because leaving the pattern felt harder than living inside it.Shiny Lies artworkShiny LiesReturn to SenderFor when the promises were beautiful, but eventually their actions told you a completely different story.Dark Room artworkDark RoomI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when their silence left you searching in the dark for answers, until you started shrinking your own needs just to keep the connection.You Want Me Shallow artworkYou Want Me ShallowReturn to SenderFor when they wanted all the comfort of loving you, as long as loving you never required them to go deeper.I Didn’t Cause the Consequences artworkI Didn’t Cause the ConsequencesCase ClosedFor when telling the truth leaves you feeling responsible for what happens to the person who hurt you.Right Feels Wrong artworkRight Feels WrongConditioned to StayFor when someone finally gives you the consistency you always wanted, but your body is still waiting for the part where it disappears.Bare Minimum artworkBare MinimumReturn to SenderFor when you realize you were being accused of the very things they were doing while you were busy trying to prove your loyalty.Wonderful Nothing artworkWonderful NothingCame Back WrongFor when you stop measuring your worth by someone else’s capacity to recognize, receive, or protect what you gave them.Dear Drew artworkDear DrewCame Back WrongFor when you stop trying to understand why they couldn’t love you differently and finally decide that what they gave you wasn’t enough.You Took The Easy Way Out artworkYou Took The Easy Way OutCame Back WrongFor when you stop wondering what someone else had that you didn’t, and realize the relationship may have simply asked for more depth than they were willing to give.Crumbs and Red Flags artworkCrumbs and Red FlagsConditioned to StayFor when you realize you weren’t holding onto the relationship as much as you were holding onto the hope that being chosen would finally make you feel worthy.I Felt Everything artworkI Felt EverythingI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when you were called too sensitive so often that you almost stopped trusting how deeply you were experiencing what was happening.Both Things Can Be True artworkBoth Things Can Be TrueWelcome Inside My MindFor the part of you becoming someone you no longer have to abandon to be loved.House Rules artworkHouse RulesConditioned to StayFor when home taught you that keeping the peace meant staying quiet, taking the blame, and becoming smaller than the truth you were trying to tell.New Map artworkNew MapConditioned to StayFor when your old patterns still feel familiar, but you’re finally learning that fear doesn’t have to choose the road for you.More Than A Name artworkMore Than A NameWelcome Inside My MindAn emotional declaration of identity after years of being seen through someone else’s story—moving from conditional love and hidden motives toward self-worth, boundaries and reclaiming your own name.You Were My Placeholder artworkYou Were My PlaceholderReturn to SenderFor when you realize you weren’t only settling for less from them, you had stopped believing you deserved more for yourself.I Should've Listened artworkI Should've ListenedConditioned to Stayor when the deepest heartbreak isn’t losing them, but realizing how many times you stopped listening to yourself just to keep them.Familiar Hurt artworkFamiliar HurtConditioned to StayFor when your mind knows the pattern hurts you, but your body still reaches for it because familiar pain feels more predictable than unfamiliar safety.Raised By Opposites artworkRaised By OppositesConditioned to StayFor when one parent taught you to disappear and the other taught you to carry too much, leaving you to learn where your own needs fit.Unfinished Equation artworkUnfinished EquationReturn to SenderFor when you realize you’re not only struggling to let go of the person, you’re struggling to let go of the answer you never received.Double Standard artworkDouble StandardReturn to SenderFor when you realize you were being held to rules they were quietly breaking themselves.Placeholder artworkPlaceholderReturn to SenderFor when you realize they kept you close enough to meet their need for connection, but never close enough to truly choose you.Louder Than Words artworkLouder Than WordsI Loved You While You Were LeavingFor when quiet felt like safety because you were used to chaos, until you realized silence could leave you lonely too.But No, You Didn't Use Me artworkBut No, You Didn't Use MeCame Back WrongFor when they kept coming back for comfort without staying for the connection that comfort was supposed to belong to.You Don't Get To Miss Me artworkYou Don't Get To Miss MeReturn to SenderFor when you spent so long disappearing to keep them that healing finally means deciding they don’t get access to you anymore.Red Flags artworkRed FlagsReturn to SenderFor when you’re finally more interested in protecting your peace than decoding another person’s red flags.I Remember Everything artworkI Remember EverythingScars You Can’t SeeFor when healing doesn’t mean forgetting what happened, but learning how to carry the memories without letting them become the ending.Narcissist artworkNarcissistReturn to SenderFor when loving someone slowly turned into managing their moods, carrying their pain, and believing it was your job to make them better.You Knew Better artworkYou Knew BetterReturn to SenderFor when you learned to say your needs as gently as possible, but they still heard your hurt as an attack.I Loved You Anyway artworkI Loved You AnywayUnsent LettersFor the part of you that loved them deeply, even after you knew love couldn’t make it work.

✝️Faith & Christian

God, prayer, hope & faith through every season.

Full Story artworkFull StoryScars You Can’t SeeFor when people know pieces of your life, but they don’t know the full story of everything it took for you to still be here.You Don't Get To Miss Me artworkYou Don't Get To Miss MeReturn to SenderFor when you spent so long disappearing to keep them that healing finally means deciding they don’t get access to you anymore.

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