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Songs for “When You Blame Yourself” · 17 found

No more protecting you artwork

No more protecting you

For when telling the truth starts feeling less cruel than carrying someone else’s shame in silence.

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I Lost Me Loving You artwork

I Lost Me Loving You

For the part of you that lost yourself trying to love someone into becoming whole.

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Raised By Opposites artwork

Raised By Opposites

For when one parent taught you to disappear and the other taught you to carry too much, leaving you to learn where your own needs fit.

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It Makes Sense artwork

It Makes Sense

For when you stop asking what was wrong with you and start understanding why the ways you learned to survive made sense.

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Hungry to Be Held artwork

Hungry to Be Held

For when the fear of losing connection makes it hard to hear, trust, or protect what your own body is asking for.

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I Didn’t Cause the Consequences artwork

I Didn’t Cause the Consequences

For when telling the truth leaves you feeling responsible for what happens to the person who hurt you.

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Going Back Doesn't Re Write My No artwork

Going Back Doesn't Re Write My No

For when you keep asking why you went back, as if returning could somehow change what happened before.

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No Better Words artwork

No Better Words

For when you keep searching for better words, as if saying it differently could’ve made someone respect what you already made clear.

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What You Never Had artwork

What You Never Had

For when you kept giving more because you thought enough love could teach someone how to give it back.

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Underdeveloped artwork

Underdeveloped

For when you realize empathy became self-abandonment because you kept explaining the behavior that was hurting you.

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Narcissist artwork

Narcissist

For when loving someone slowly turned into managing their moods, carrying their pain, and believing it was your job to make them better.

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You Don't Get To Rewrite My No artwork

You Don't Get To Rewrite My No

For when you’ve been using everything that happened after your no to question whether your no still counted.

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I Said No artwork

I Said No

For when you said no before you froze, and still found yourself questioning whether surviving somehow changed what you meant.

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A Love He Didn't Know artwork

A Love He Didn't Know

For when you understood their wounds so deeply that you kept explaining away the ways loving them was wounding you.

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Conditioned To Stay artwork

Conditioned To Stay

For when you spent years asking why you stayed before realizing you were slowly taught to stop trusting your own boundaries.

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I Knew ( But I Stayed ) artwork

I Knew ( But I Stayed )

For when you knew something wasn’t right, but kept explaining it away because accepting the truth meant having to leave.

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I Loved the Monster Softly artwork

I Loved the Monster Softly

For when understanding why they hurt you became the reason you kept staying long enough to hurt yourself.

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