[Verse 1]
I used to fight the feeling
Like it didn’t belong
Call it overreacting
Call it something was wrong
I kept it all quiet
Buried under control
Learned how to look fine
While I was losing my soul
Every “don’t make a scene”
Every “just be okay”
Built a wall in my chest
I didn’t know how to name
[Pre-Chorus]
But silence has a breaking point
And mine came like a wave
[Chorus]
I thought it was anger
Burning through my veins
But when I let it speak
It was calling out my pain
Every tear I swallowed
Every time I stayed small
It was never just rage
It was everything I lost
I was never too much
I was never insane
What I called anger
Was just hurt with no name
[Verse 2]
Then shame sat beside me
Like it knew me too well
Whispered “something’s broken”
Like a story I’d tell
Made me question my heart
Made me shrink who I am
Like I had to be less
Just to be understood
Every “you’re too intense”
Every look, every sigh
Turned into a voice
That kept living inside
[Pre-Chorus]
But when I stayed long enough
It started telling the truth
[Chorus]
I thought it was anger
Burning through my veins
But when I let it speak
It was calling out my pain
Every tear I swallowed
Every time I stayed small
It was never just rage
It was everything I lost
I was never too much
I was never insane
What I called anger
Was just hurt with no name
[Bridge]
And grief…it doesn’t scream
It waits in the quiet
It lives in the spaces
You learned to deny it
It said, “I’m the love
You were reaching for then
The arms that you needed
But never came in”
“I’m the child still waiting
To finally be seen
Not too loud, not too deep
Just held in between…”
[Breakdown]
So I stopped trying to fix it
Stopped trying to run
Maybe healing isn’t
Becoming someone
Maybe it’s listening
To what I became
And holding it gently
Instead of the shame
[Final Chorus]
It wasn’t just anger
It was years of disguise
It was hurt wearing armor
It was truth in my eyes
Every piece I buried
Every version of me
Wasn’t trying to hurt me
Just begging to be seen
I was never too much
I was never the blame
What I called broken
Was just love without a place
[Outro]
So I sit with the feeling
I don’t push it away
’Cause maybe it’s not what I feared…
It’s just what I couldn’t say.