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Songs for “Collection:reclaiming” · 45 found

You Want Me Shallow artwork

You Want Me Shallow

For when they wanted all the comfort of loving you, as long as loving you never required them to go deeper.

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You Don't Get To Miss Me artwork

You Don't Get To Miss Me

For when you spent so long disappearing to keep them that healing finally means deciding they don’t get access to you anymore.

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Silence Was Safer Than Truth artwork

Silence Was Safer Than Truth

For when staying connected felt safer than telling the truth, so you kept swallowing your needs until you could barely hear yourself anymore.

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No more protecting you artwork

No more protecting you

For when telling the truth starts feeling less cruel than carrying someone else’s shame in silence.

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If You Wanted Me artwork

If You Wanted Me

For when they didn’t want to lose you, but still wouldn’t choose you, and you finally realize those are two very different things.

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Goodbye artwork

Goodbye

For when you finally stop waiting for one more answer and realize the only thing left to do is let go.

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Dear Drew artwork

Dear Drew

For when you stop trying to understand why they couldn’t love you differently and finally decide that what they gave you wasn’t enough.

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New Map artwork

New Map

For when your old patterns still feel familiar, but you’re finally learning that fear doesn’t have to choose the road for you.

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Losing Me artwork

Losing Me

For when you realize your fear of losing them has been costing you pieces of yourself.

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Hurt With No Name artwork

Hurt With No Name

A gentle, heartbreaking and deeply healing journey from anger through shame and grief to self-compassion—discovering that difficult emotions are messengers asking to be heard.

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Nobody Can Know artwork

Nobody Can Know

For when you’ve learned all the lessons, built all the boundaries, and still find yourself wanting the one thing you know you’ve outgrown.

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Two Voices artwork

Two Voices

“Two Voices" is about what happens when everything I’ve been carrying gets loud at the same time.

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More Than A Name artwork

More Than A Name

An emotional declaration of identity after years of being seen through someone else’s story—moving from conditional love and hidden motives toward self-worth, boundaries and reclaiming your own name.

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The People Inside Of Me artwork

The People Inside Of Me

For when different parts of you carry different pieces of what happened, and healing means learning to listen to all of them without losing yourself.

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I Lost Me Loving You artwork

I Lost Me Loving You

For the part of you that lost yourself trying to love someone into becoming whole.

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Your Terms artwork

Your Terms

For when they controlled when to pull you close, when to create distance, and when to leave, until you finally stopped letting them set the terms.

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Double Standard artwork

Double Standard

For when you realize you were being held to rules they were quietly breaking themselves.

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Right Feels Wrong artwork

Right Feels Wrong

For when someone finally gives you the consistency you always wanted, but your body is still waiting for the part where it disappears.

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You Were My Placeholder artwork

You Were My Placeholder

For when you realize you weren’t only settling for less from them, you had stopped believing you deserved more for yourself.

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Silence Was Louder artwork

Silence Was Louder

For when you spent so long making your needs quieter that you almost stopped hearing them yourself.

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I Was Right artwork

I Was Right

For when the truth finally confirms what you felt all along, but being right hurts more than the uncertainty ever did.

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Couldn't Choose Me artwork

Couldn't Choose Me

For when you stop waiting for someone to choose you and finally make the choice for yourself.

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Fine Print artwork

Fine Print

For when you still miss them and still know why you left, and you’re finally learning neither feeling has to cancel the other.

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Better This Way artwork

Better This Way

For when experiencing steady love finally shows you how heavy the love you were chasing used to feel.

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What You Never Had artwork

What You Never Had

For when you kept giving more because you thought enough love could teach someone how to give it back.

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Wonderful Nothing artwork

Wonderful Nothing

For when you stop measuring your worth by someone else’s capacity to recognize, receive, or protect what you gave them.

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Shiny Lies artwork

Shiny Lies

For when the promises were beautiful, but eventually their actions told you a completely different story.

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The Version That Never Existed artwork

The Version That Never Existed

For when you’re no longer grieving the relationship, you’re grieving the person you thought you knew inside it.

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Underdeveloped artwork

Underdeveloped

For when you realize empathy became self-abandonment because you kept explaining the behavior that was hurting you.

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Good Riddance artwork

Good Riddance

For when you finally realize you weren’t lacking anything, you were offering depth to someone who kept choosing the shallow end.

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Narcissist artwork

Narcissist

For when loving someone slowly turned into managing their moods, carrying their pain, and believing it was your job to make them better.

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But No, You Didn't Use Me artwork

But No, You Didn't Use Me

For when they kept coming back for comfort without staying for the connection that comfort was supposed to belong to.

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I Felt Everything artwork

I Felt Everything

For when you were called too sensitive so often that you almost stopped trusting how deeply you were experiencing what was happening.

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I Should've Listened artwork

I Should've Listened

or when the deepest heartbreak isn’t losing them, but realizing how many times you stopped listening to yourself just to keep them.

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Dark Room artwork

Dark Room

For when their silence left you searching in the dark for answers, until you started shrinking your own needs just to keep the connection.

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Pick A Side artwork

Pick A Side

For when someone wanted you to act taken while keeping themselves free to call you single whenever it benefited them.

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Placeholder artwork

Placeholder

For when you realize they kept you close enough to meet their need for connection, but never close enough to truly choose you.

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I Was Brave artwork

I Was Brave

For when you realize courage wasn’t feeling less afraid, it was choosing honesty and vulnerability even while you were scared.

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If I Could Talk to Her artwork

If I Could Talk to Her

For when you stop comparing yourself to who comes next and start feeling compassion for the version of yourself who once stood there too.

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I Don't Envy Her artwork

I Don't Envy Her

For when you stop envying who comes next because you remember what being chosen by them eventually cost you.

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A Love He Didn't Know artwork

A Love He Didn't Know

For when you understood their wounds so deeply that you kept explaining away the ways loving them was wounding you.

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You Didn't Break Me artwork

You Didn't Break Me

For when healing means taking responsibility for the ways you abandoned yourself without taking the blame for someone else’s choices.

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Red Flags artwork

Red Flags

For when you’re finally more interested in protecting your peace than decoding another person’s red flags.

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Cry Like A Boy artwork

Cry Like A Boy

For when someone finally gets a taste of the same mixed signals, ghosting, and games they once handed out so easily.

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Return To Sender artwork

Return To Sender

For when you finally realize the doubt, blame, and confusion they left you carrying were never yours to keep.

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