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Songs for “Collection:abuse” · 26 found

The Shouting And The Hush artwork

The Shouting And The Hush

For when one relationship taught you to brace for chaos and another taught you not to trust the quiet.

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No more protecting you artwork

No more protecting you

For when telling the truth starts feeling less cruel than carrying someone else’s shame in silence.

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Bare Minimum artwork

Bare Minimum

For when you realize you were being accused of the very things they were doing while you were busy trying to prove your loyalty.

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Full Story artwork

Full Story

For when people know pieces of your life, but they don’t know the full story of everything it took for you to still be here.

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Two Voices artwork

Two Voices

“Two Voices" is about what happens when everything I’ve been carrying gets loud at the same time.

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PTSD artwork

PTSD

For when your life looks safe now, but your body is still responding to everything it had to survive.

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The People Inside Of Me artwork

The People Inside Of Me

For when different parts of you carry different pieces of what happened, and healing means learning to listen to all of them without losing yourself.

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House Rules artwork

House Rules

For when home taught you that keeping the peace meant staying quiet, taking the blame, and becoming smaller than the truth you were trying to tell.

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Daylight or Nothing artwork

Daylight or Nothing

For when being wanted in private felt easier than risking rejection by asking to be loved fully and openly.

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It Makes Sense artwork

It Makes Sense

For when you stop asking what was wrong with you and start understanding why the ways you learned to survive made sense.

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Hungry to Be Held artwork

Hungry to Be Held

For when the fear of losing connection makes it hard to hear, trust, or protect what your own body is asking for.

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Love Would Have Listened artwork

Love Would Have Listened

For when someone taught you to question your own boundaries, and you’re finally remembering they never needed permission to matter.

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I Didn’t Cause the Consequences artwork

I Didn’t Cause the Consequences

For when telling the truth leaves you feeling responsible for what happens to the person who hurt you.

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Going Back Doesn't Re Write My No artwork

Going Back Doesn't Re Write My No

For when you keep asking why you went back, as if returning could somehow change what happened before.

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No Better Words artwork

No Better Words

For when you keep searching for better words, as if saying it differently could’ve made someone respect what you already made clear.

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The Cycle artwork

The Cycle

For when the cycle kept pulling you back in until you finally stopped calling control, confusion, and pain “love.”

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I Remember Everything artwork

I Remember Everything

For when healing doesn’t mean forgetting what happened, but learning how to carry the memories without letting them become the ending.

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Narcissist artwork

Narcissist

For when loving someone slowly turned into managing their moods, carrying their pain, and believing it was your job to make them better.

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You Don't Get To Rewrite My No artwork

You Don't Get To Rewrite My No

For when you’ve been using everything that happened after your no to question whether your no still counted.

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I Said No artwork

I Said No

For when you said no before you froze, and still found yourself questioning whether surviving somehow changed what you meant.

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Changed Me artwork

Changed Me

For when the relationship ended, but your mind and body were still carrying the ways it taught you to question yourself and brace for danger.

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Came Back While Lying artwork

Came Back While Lying

For when they came back knowing the truth would’ve changed whether you let them touch you at all.

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You Didn't Break Me artwork

You Didn't Break Me

For when healing means taking responsibility for the ways you abandoned yourself without taking the blame for someone else’s choices.

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Conditioned To Stay artwork

Conditioned To Stay

For when you spent years asking why you stayed before realizing you were slowly taught to stop trusting your own boundaries.

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Left Me Guessing artwork

Left Me Guessing

For when they kept you questioning yourself while hiding the very truth your instincts were trying to find.

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You Don't Get Access artwork

You Don't Get Access

For when you realize they loved having access to you more than they ever loved showing up for you.

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