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Songs for “Reclaiming My Voice” · 56 found

You Want Me Shallow artwork

You Want Me Shallow

For when they wanted all the comfort of loving you, as long as loving you never required them to go deeper.

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You Don't Get To Miss Me artwork

You Don't Get To Miss Me

For when you spent so long disappearing to keep them that healing finally means deciding they don’t get access to you anymore.

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Silence Was Safer Than Truth artwork

Silence Was Safer Than Truth

For when staying connected felt safer than telling the truth, so you kept swallowing your needs until you could barely hear yourself anymore.

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No more protecting you artwork

No more protecting you

For when telling the truth starts feeling less cruel than carrying someone else’s shame in silence.

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If You Wanted Me artwork

If You Wanted Me

For when they didn’t want to lose you, but still wouldn’t choose you, and you finally realize those are two very different things.

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You Knew Better artwork

You Knew Better

For when you learned to say your needs as gently as possible, but they still heard your hurt as an attack.

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Bare Minimum artwork

Bare Minimum

For when you realize you were being accused of the very things they were doing while you were busy trying to prove your loyalty.

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Dear Drew artwork

Dear Drew

For when you stop trying to understand why they couldn’t love you differently and finally decide that what they gave you wasn’t enough.

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Losing Me artwork

Losing Me

For when you realize your fear of losing them has been costing you pieces of yourself.

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Both Things Can Be True artwork

Both Things Can Be True

For the part of you becoming someone you no longer have to abandon to be loved.

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No Repair artwork

No Repair

For when the truth finally came, but the apology, accountability, and repair you needed never came with it.

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I Lost Me Loving You artwork

I Lost Me Loving You

For the part of you that lost yourself trying to love someone into becoming whole.

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Your Terms artwork

Your Terms

For when they controlled when to pull you close, when to create distance, and when to leave, until you finally stopped letting them set the terms.

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Double Standard artwork

Double Standard

For when you realize you were being held to rules they were quietly breaking themselves.

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House Rules artwork

House Rules

For when home taught you that keeping the peace meant staying quiet, taking the blame, and becoming smaller than the truth you were trying to tell.

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Daylight or Nothing artwork

Daylight or Nothing

For when being wanted in private felt easier than risking rejection by asking to be loved fully and openly.

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Hungry to Be Held artwork

Hungry to Be Held

For when the fear of losing connection makes it hard to hear, trust, or protect what your own body is asking for.

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Love Would Have Listened artwork

Love Would Have Listened

For when someone taught you to question your own boundaries, and you’re finally remembering they never needed permission to matter.

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You Were My Placeholder artwork

You Were My Placeholder

For when you realize you weren’t only settling for less from them, you had stopped believing you deserved more for yourself.

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Silence Was Louder artwork

Silence Was Louder

For when you spent so long making your needs quieter that you almost stopped hearing them yourself.

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Gaslight Glow artwork

Gaslight Glow

For when they made you question what you could already feel, until you trusted their version of reality more than your own.

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Convenience artwork

Convenience

For when you realize they kept you close because they knew you’d always be there, not because they were truly choosing you.

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I Was Right artwork

I Was Right

For when the truth finally confirms what you felt all along, but being right hurts more than the uncertainty ever did.

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Couldn't Choose Me artwork

Couldn't Choose Me

For when you stop waiting for someone to choose you and finally make the choice for yourself.

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Last Call artwork

Last Call

For when you realize being their late-night comfort was never the same as being their first choice.

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Already Chosen artwork

Already Chosen

For the part of you trying to understand why love can feel so complicated when old patterns get involved.

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The Cycle artwork

The Cycle

For when the cycle kept pulling you back in until you finally stopped calling control, confusion, and pain “love.”

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What You Never Had artwork

What You Never Had

For when you kept giving more because you thought enough love could teach someone how to give it back.

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Wonderful Nothing artwork

Wonderful Nothing

For when you stop measuring your worth by someone else’s capacity to recognize, receive, or protect what you gave them.

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Shiny Lies artwork

Shiny Lies

For when the promises were beautiful, but eventually their actions told you a completely different story.

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Underdeveloped artwork

Underdeveloped

For when you realize empathy became self-abandonment because you kept explaining the behavior that was hurting you.

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Good Riddance artwork

Good Riddance

For when you finally realize you weren’t lacking anything, you were offering depth to someone who kept choosing the shallow end.

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If Silence Could Speak artwork

If Silence Could Speak

For when you realized doing nothing was still communicating something, and their silence kept saying what their words wouldn’t.

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Narcissist artwork

Narcissist

For when loving someone slowly turned into managing their moods, carrying their pain, and believing it was your job to make them better.

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But No, You Didn't Use Me artwork

But No, You Didn't Use Me

For when they kept coming back for comfort without staying for the connection that comfort was supposed to belong to.

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I Felt Everything artwork

I Felt Everything

For when you were called too sensitive so often that you almost stopped trusting how deeply you were experiencing what was happening.

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I Should've Listened artwork

I Should've Listened

or when the deepest heartbreak isn’t losing them, but realizing how many times you stopped listening to yourself just to keep them.

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Dark Room artwork

Dark Room

For when their silence left you searching in the dark for answers, until you started shrinking your own needs just to keep the connection.

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Pick A Side artwork

Pick A Side

For when someone wanted you to act taken while keeping themselves free to call you single whenever it benefited them.

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Placeholder artwork

Placeholder

For when you realize they kept you close enough to meet their need for connection, but never close enough to truly choose you.

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You Came Back artwork

You Came Back

For when they could’ve stayed gone, but came back hiding the truth that would’ve kept your door closed.

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I Was Brave artwork

I Was Brave

For when you realize courage wasn’t feeling less afraid, it was choosing honesty and vulnerability even while you were scared.

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Cowards Crown artwork

Cowards Crown

For when they never had to physically leave the relationship for their attention and honesty to start going somewhere else.

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If I Could Talk to Her artwork

If I Could Talk to Her

For when you stop comparing yourself to who comes next and start feeling compassion for the version of yourself who once stood there too.

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Came Back While Lying artwork

Came Back While Lying

For when they came back knowing the truth would’ve changed whether you let them touch you at all.

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Came Back Like You Meant It artwork

Came Back Like You Meant It

For when they came back like they were choosing you while hiding the truth that would’ve made you walk away.

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A Love He Didn't Know artwork

A Love He Didn't Know

For when you understood their wounds so deeply that you kept explaining away the ways loving them was wounding you.

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Red Flags artwork

Red Flags

For when you’re finally more interested in protecting your peace than decoding another person’s red flags.

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You Took The Easy Way Out artwork

You Took The Easy Way Out

For when you stop wondering what someone else had that you didn’t, and realize the relationship may have simply asked for more depth than they were willing to give.

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Conditioned To Stay artwork

Conditioned To Stay

For when you spent years asking why you stayed before realizing you were slowly taught to stop trusting your own boundaries.

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You Didn't Even Try artwork

You Didn't Even Try

For when they came back wanting access to you, but still weren’t willing to choose you.

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You Had To Make Me Small artwork

You Had To Make Me Small

For when the things they once loved about you became “too much” the moment closeness started asking more of them.

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Left Me Guessing artwork

Left Me Guessing

For when they kept you questioning yourself while hiding the very truth your instincts were trying to find.

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Cry Like A Boy artwork

Cry Like A Boy

For when someone finally gets a taste of the same mixed signals, ghosting, and games they once handed out so easily.

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You Don't Get Access artwork

You Don't Get Access

For when you realize they loved having access to you more than they ever loved showing up for you.

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Return To Sender artwork

Return To Sender

For when you finally realize the doubt, blame, and confusion they left you carrying were never yours to keep.

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